Pink is my favorite color!

Pink is EVERYWHERE! Getting ready to show off some Breast Cancer Awareness...& yes, pink just so happens to be my FAVORITE color! Here are some 'pink' things that I must obtain this weekend!

And apparently I have yet to figure out how to upload pics the right side up! I just edited these pics on my desktop but they still uploaded sideways! Ugh

Digging through the mess...

Literally...my house is trashed. I'm trying to gather some things to put in a garage sale tomorrow, but I have no idea what to get rid of! How do you choose? Also, I've been trying to authenticate a Burberry tote, & everything seems to check out, but I'm not 100% sure & it is aggravating that there is no way to know! Argh!

Besides all of this, my co-worker is being a big "B". Not really sure what the deal is, but I am so tired of arrogant, ass kissers in the corporate world. Can't you get anywhere by being honest?!

Getting Crafty...

My head feels like it is going to EXPLODE! My creative juices are flowing & mixed w/ a little anxiety & extreme personality, sometimes is very overwhelming! I mean, when do you have time to do all the stuff you want to do everyday and/or learn everyday? There are just sooo many choices & examples & blogs out there, how do you weed through all of it? I have stacks of books I haven't finished reading or haven't started to read & many more that I want to purchase & read!
So, here it goes...starting tomorrow, I am going to attempt (1) craft item (I'm not sure which one yet), read a little & anything else I can fit in there! LOL

Seriously...what is the point?

Here we are, another day, & no closer to finding my purpose in this life or what I even have to offer. Why is it that some are so lucky to be living out their dreams or making a difference, while others are starving to death, & more just going through the motions of day to day life. Don't get me wrong, I know I have been blessed & brought back from the ashes by God, but is mediocre all I'm destined for? If so, why can't I accept that & be satisfied? How did the movie stars or whatever get "picked" to do what they do & live a life of luxury - why are they any better than those who are starving on the streets? Now, I'm not trying to knock the work of movies stars & such, they do work hard & live their lives in the spolight, it's just why them & not me? I know that probably does not make any sense, but it does in my own head.
I had spent 23 years of my life being someone that everyone else wanted me to be, or how I thought they would want me to be so maybe I could be accepted somewhere. Now, I have the opportunity to be whoever I want to be & do what I want to do, but I have no idea where to start or how to achieve it. I've never thought much of myself or even given myself credit where I probably deserve it. I don't think I have any talents or skills or anyting really to offer in life...so why was I created?

I know I will probably never know the answer to my questions, but I just don't understand why I couldn't have been dealt with cards that would help me do what I think I want to do. I'm not really "living", I'm not sure if I even know how to do that. How do you figure out what your purpose is in life? How do you know what it is that God wants from/of you? It hasn't been that long since my divorce & complete mental breakdown & I know that it will take quite some time & patience to mend the damage that has been done to my innerself, but I just feel like it's too late for me...too late in life to start over. The world is also full of ugliness & hatred - I find it very difficult to want to be around people (even though deep down, I do want that social interaction) because I see humans for what we are & it just makes me angry or sad. I have a HUGE trust issue - I tend to shut down & lock everyone else out.

Do we create our own destinies (with guidance & help from God of course) or, are we already "pre-packaged" in the mold He wants us to be? Is it really possible to be whatever you want to be when you grow up?

Another unproductive day...

So here it is, another Saturday in which I have accomplished nothing. Although, I did get my new BB Dakota jacket in the mail (yes, the one Bella wore in Twilight!) & yes, I'm a complete dork! With Breaking Dawn comng up, I'm having to prepare my 'Twilight' attire...LOL

I did however read the new PEOPLE magazine out & let me just say...WOW! Parents are really dressing their little girls up like hookers! (See Toddlers & Tiaras). Not really sure what to think about all that.

My 2 big girls have made it very difficult for me to do anything today, but nap. They are just so FLUFFY! I love my girls! They are the best companions ever! Even though Mama can clear out a room with her gas! LOL I've always wondered why dogs turn in a circle before they lay down...I should google that.

Well, finally off to bed...got to get my beauty rest so I can 'drive into town' (yee haw!) tomorrow to pick up some crafting goodies! Woohoo! Sounds just fascinating!