Have you ever woken up to realize your life is like a movie? Well, I'm lucky enough to realize my day to day work life is "Office Space" everyday. Goodness! If someone has to remind me to do my damn job one more time I'm going to explode! When I have information I will give you information! Until then, asking me a million times will not make you get an answer from me any faster! Just saying....
*Unicorns & Glitter*
Monday, February 20, 2012
Thursday, February 16, 2012
The great hedgehog escape!
Just a typical Thursday night with my girls - Bella has found her hedgehog - & what do we do with the hedgehog? Play tug-o-war & fetch...duh! But then Esme decides she wants into the action...there's a stare down...Bella must avenge her hedgehog! LOL
Love the snorts & grunts!
Love the snorts & grunts!
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Love is never enough...
Whoever said all you need is love, was seriously disturbed. Love isn't everything you need & it's never enough. People will use you, abuse you & then spit you back out more ragged than you were before...yet I shouldn't think it was me? Of course not. I'm supposed to not be bitter & not take it out on the next relationship? Yeah, I'll get right on that, it's soo much fun giving your heart out to just anyone & have it fucking ripped a part just because it was fun for the moment. It has always been my dream to just date randomly, never settle down & just not care for a deeper connection.
DON'T FUCKING TELL SOMEONE THAT YOU WANT TO MARRY THEM, START PLANNING SHIT, GET YOUR KID INVOLVED & THEN DUMP YOU VIA TEXT MSG BECAUSE LONG DISTANCE IS HARD! Don't fucking try to tell me you do love me, because the last time I checked, I didn't do that to people I loved...just saying. But maybe I should. Seems to be the thing to do. They end up on top, so why the fuck not? I didn't care if he had money or if he were Brad Pitt...I didn't care he ate meat & loved to hunt...I didn't care if he wanted to get up & move across the world...all I cared about was him. Just him. Now I have friends telling me that we really didn't love each other...I'm so glad I get to hear that now. I do love him & it doesn't matter what the fuck I say because I'm just making him into someone he wasn't & I'm just more concerned about the relationship. How is that helping? The only things I said no too was being an alcoholic, drug addicted or strip clubs...damn I must be some fucking crazy fucking woman & that is just asking WAY too much of someone who says they love you & wants to be with you the rest of your life.
But of course, none of this matters because it was all a lie. I don't understand people. Why the fuck do I want to get involved in a relationship just to fuck someone over? Maybe I'm just weird that I actually mean I love you when I say it & really wanted to spend the rest of my life with you no matter what stupid shit you did or if I had to take care of your athlete's foot or even accept your daughter into my life because obviously she is important to you so she's important to me. That's just fucking ridiculous I know. What the fuck was I thinking? Ok I'm sorry to vent here, but when you don't have anyone to talk to that actually backs you up it doesn't leave a whole lot of options to vent.
DON'T FUCKING TELL SOMEONE THAT YOU WANT TO MARRY THEM, START PLANNING SHIT, GET YOUR KID INVOLVED & THEN DUMP YOU VIA TEXT MSG BECAUSE LONG DISTANCE IS HARD! Don't fucking try to tell me you do love me, because the last time I checked, I didn't do that to people I loved...just saying. But maybe I should. Seems to be the thing to do. They end up on top, so why the fuck not? I didn't care if he had money or if he were Brad Pitt...I didn't care he ate meat & loved to hunt...I didn't care if he wanted to get up & move across the world...all I cared about was him. Just him. Now I have friends telling me that we really didn't love each other...I'm so glad I get to hear that now. I do love him & it doesn't matter what the fuck I say because I'm just making him into someone he wasn't & I'm just more concerned about the relationship. How is that helping? The only things I said no too was being an alcoholic, drug addicted or strip clubs...damn I must be some fucking crazy fucking woman & that is just asking WAY too much of someone who says they love you & wants to be with you the rest of your life.
But of course, none of this matters because it was all a lie. I don't understand people. Why the fuck do I want to get involved in a relationship just to fuck someone over? Maybe I'm just weird that I actually mean I love you when I say it & really wanted to spend the rest of my life with you no matter what stupid shit you did or if I had to take care of your athlete's foot or even accept your daughter into my life because obviously she is important to you so she's important to me. That's just fucking ridiculous I know. What the fuck was I thinking? Ok I'm sorry to vent here, but when you don't have anyone to talk to that actually backs you up it doesn't leave a whole lot of options to vent.
What a way to start February...
I have always hated Valentine's Day. Not only do I think it is a Corporate conspiracy (flowers, candies, etc. at jacked up prices) but it also is a public day of "Who loves you?" Oh, that would be no one. So, I don't even know if I'm still in a relationship with the person I've been dating for 2 years now...pretty lame huh? He just quit talking to me...now keep in mind, this is after he decided to move away with his job & claimed that it was "for us & our future"....should've have smelled the bullshit there. Damn, you would think I would be smarter by now...especially after having a husband who sent a picture of his penis to his lover on your one year anniversary in your home that you share & then knock her up & serve you divorce papers over a text message. Why is it that four letter word makes you do the most ridiculous & insane things? Makes you believe any lie & leads to false hope.
So guys, grow a pair & just fucking tell your partner the truth if YOU decide YOU want to go back on YOUR word. Don't fucking tell someone you love them & want to spend the rest of your life with them when those are just empty words. There will always be some female out there that will spread her legs for you without the line of crap you feed to them. And yes, I take responsibility for being the dumb ass who gave you a second chance. And let me just say thank you for pushing your daughter on to me & allowing me to let her into my life as well, just to keep me around long enough for whatever stupid reason. Thank you for allowing me to be your secretary & help sell your home, write your contract, help you move & then clean your fucking house with your mother. Thank you for taking time out of your day to schmooze with my parents who accepted you into their home, fed you & gave you & your daughter gifts just like you were a part of the family.
Last, but not least, thank you for going about a month without seeing me, being a dick to me when you know I'm looking for some fucking reassurance & then just give the cold shoulder like a fucking 5 year old after 2 years of me standing by you & supporting anything you did & wanted to do. To guys: before you start to think that all women are just whiny & bitchy or whatever other bullshit you want to say, what does that make you when you can't even break up with someone to their face? Does that make you manly to dump someone who you supposedly wanted to have children with over the phone in a text message? Is it invigorating that you know you are taking a knife & stabbing the other person in their back while continuously twisting it deeper & deeper into their heart? Frankly, I think it makes you a coward & I have no respect for someone who does that.
Whoever said absence make the heart grow fonder was smoking something...absence make the heart grow FARTHER away. And I am the fool, yet again...seriously, what's the point of loving someone & giving them your heart? What's the point of fucking Disney movies & the naive dream that their is true love & all that other mumbo jumbo? Please enlighten me because I'm drawing a blank. Work, friends, & affairs will 9 times out of 10 win over you.
So here it is going on 2 days without a word from him. How am I not suppose to think we are even still together? It's always attractive when a man hurts a woman; who wouldn't want this?
Just saying
*unicorns & glitter*
So guys, grow a pair & just fucking tell your partner the truth if YOU decide YOU want to go back on YOUR word. Don't fucking tell someone you love them & want to spend the rest of your life with them when those are just empty words. There will always be some female out there that will spread her legs for you without the line of crap you feed to them. And yes, I take responsibility for being the dumb ass who gave you a second chance. And let me just say thank you for pushing your daughter on to me & allowing me to let her into my life as well, just to keep me around long enough for whatever stupid reason. Thank you for allowing me to be your secretary & help sell your home, write your contract, help you move & then clean your fucking house with your mother. Thank you for taking time out of your day to schmooze with my parents who accepted you into their home, fed you & gave you & your daughter gifts just like you were a part of the family.
Last, but not least, thank you for going about a month without seeing me, being a dick to me when you know I'm looking for some fucking reassurance & then just give the cold shoulder like a fucking 5 year old after 2 years of me standing by you & supporting anything you did & wanted to do. To guys: before you start to think that all women are just whiny & bitchy or whatever other bullshit you want to say, what does that make you when you can't even break up with someone to their face? Does that make you manly to dump someone who you supposedly wanted to have children with over the phone in a text message? Is it invigorating that you know you are taking a knife & stabbing the other person in their back while continuously twisting it deeper & deeper into their heart? Frankly, I think it makes you a coward & I have no respect for someone who does that.
Whoever said absence make the heart grow fonder was smoking something...absence make the heart grow FARTHER away. And I am the fool, yet again...seriously, what's the point of loving someone & giving them your heart? What's the point of fucking Disney movies & the naive dream that their is true love & all that other mumbo jumbo? Please enlighten me because I'm drawing a blank. Work, friends, & affairs will 9 times out of 10 win over you.
So here it is going on 2 days without a word from him. How am I not suppose to think we are even still together? It's always attractive when a man hurts a woman; who wouldn't want this?
Just saying
*unicorns & glitter*
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Relationships, love & havok it can bring
It still baffles me to this day that I still attempt to be involved with someone. You would think I would have learned by now that people don't stick around & words are empty. I think, whoever came up with the saying "better to have loved & lost, than never loved at all" never lost anyone. It's hard not to believe that it's not your fault.
I've allowed this guy back into my life 3 times now & believing what he said to me. Why did I do that? Because I'm fucking retarded, that's why. For some reason, there is this ridiculous idea & hope that I would be able to spend the rest of my life with someone. Damn Disney movies! LOL And where does it get me? Nowhere. Does it do any good? No. Just one more piece of the heart gone.
I don't know how to not care...I mean, is he giving a damn now? Nope. I don't understand how you can hurt someone & not feel bad...I don't know how to do that. Maybe it would be easier if I would learn that tactic. He knows I'm hurting & does he offer any condolensce? No. I don' t know why I honestly believed him & trusted him...and that's a big deal. I don't trust anyone. Even after all the shit I've been drug through, I allowed the hope trickle in & let myself believe he really did want to get married & all that other bull. For 2 YEARS!
How many chances do you gives someone? Crying doesn't do anything...nothing changes. So is it worth it?
*Unicorns & Glitter*
I've allowed this guy back into my life 3 times now & believing what he said to me. Why did I do that? Because I'm fucking retarded, that's why. For some reason, there is this ridiculous idea & hope that I would be able to spend the rest of my life with someone. Damn Disney movies! LOL And where does it get me? Nowhere. Does it do any good? No. Just one more piece of the heart gone.
I don't know how to not care...I mean, is he giving a damn now? Nope. I don't understand how you can hurt someone & not feel bad...I don't know how to do that. Maybe it would be easier if I would learn that tactic. He knows I'm hurting & does he offer any condolensce? No. I don' t know why I honestly believed him & trusted him...and that's a big deal. I don't trust anyone. Even after all the shit I've been drug through, I allowed the hope trickle in & let myself believe he really did want to get married & all that other bull. For 2 YEARS!
How many chances do you gives someone? Crying doesn't do anything...nothing changes. So is it worth it?
*Unicorns & Glitter*
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