I have always hated Valentine's Day. Not only do I think it is a Corporate conspiracy (flowers, candies, etc. at jacked up prices) but it also is a public day of "Who loves you?" Oh, that would be no one. So, I don't even know if I'm still in a relationship with the person I've been dating for 2 years now...pretty lame huh? He just quit talking to me...now keep in mind, this is after he decided to move away with his job & claimed that it was "for us & our future"....should've have smelled the bullshit there. Damn, you would think I would be smarter by now...especially after having a husband who sent a picture of his penis to his lover on your one year anniversary in your home that you share & then knock her up & serve you divorce papers over a text message. Why is it that four letter word makes you do the most ridiculous & insane things? Makes you believe any lie & leads to false hope.
So guys, grow a pair & just fucking tell your partner the truth if YOU decide YOU want to go back on YOUR word. Don't fucking tell someone you love them & want to spend the rest of your life with them when those are just empty words. There will always be some female out there that will spread her legs for you without the line of crap you feed to them. And yes, I take responsibility for being the dumb ass who gave you a second chance. And let me just say thank you for pushing your daughter on to me & allowing me to let her into my life as well, just to keep me around long enough for whatever stupid reason. Thank you for allowing me to be your secretary & help sell your home, write your contract, help you move & then clean your fucking house with your mother. Thank you for taking time out of your day to schmooze with my parents who accepted you into their home, fed you & gave you & your daughter gifts just like you were a part of the family.
Last, but not least, thank you for going about a month without seeing me, being a dick to me when you know I'm looking for some fucking reassurance & then just give the cold shoulder like a fucking 5 year old after 2 years of me standing by you & supporting anything you did & wanted to do. To guys: before you start to think that all women are just whiny & bitchy or whatever other bullshit you want to say, what does that make you when you can't even break up with someone to their face? Does that make you manly to dump someone who you supposedly wanted to have children with over the phone in a text message? Is it invigorating that you know you are taking a knife & stabbing the other person in their back while continuously twisting it deeper & deeper into their heart? Frankly, I think it makes you a coward & I have no respect for someone who does that.
Whoever said absence make the heart grow fonder was smoking something...absence make the heart grow FARTHER away. And I am the fool, yet again...seriously, what's the point of loving someone & giving them your heart? What's the point of fucking Disney movies & the naive dream that their is true love & all that other mumbo jumbo? Please enlighten me because I'm drawing a blank. Work, friends, & affairs will 9 times out of 10 win over you.
So here it is going on 2 days without a word from him. How am I not suppose to think we are even still together? It's always attractive when a man hurts a woman; who wouldn't want this?
Just saying
*unicorns & glitter*
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