The big bus...

What is up with people? Why do we always have to throw someone "under the bus" instead of taking ANY
responsibility ourselves. So a co- worker of mine definitely hops in the damn bus, runs me over, & backs up to do it again! WTF! There was NO reason for that -WTH is wrong with people!?
If I'm stuck doing this vocation for the rest of my life, it's going to be one short life. argh!

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So frustrating...

Just because I'm not "chatty kathy" or speaking to every single person that walks by my office (heaven forbid I'm working) doesn't mean I'm not approachable. Also, just because you prefer to chit chat w/ my work neighbor & would rather ask her questions about orders that I have placed, is not my problem - that doesn't mean I'm not doing my job nor does that mean she's any better at her job.
Because I'm very systematic & keep to myself, people feel the need to "complain" because they do not get the same response or whatever as they do whenever they ask my neighbor. First off, my neighbor & I do NOT do the same things as each other everyday! We each have our own little niche & we function as a team. Yes, my neighbor is very personable & will chit chat with you, where as I do not really do that. I'm sorry, but I don't care about what's going on in your personal life (especially if I do not really know you) & when I'm busy at WORK, I don't particularly like to stop & waste time that I do not have. I'm here to work & do a job, not hear the latest gossip going around this sad little town. Second, did it ever occur to these people that my neighbor puts off her work to answer/help them with a question that should be directed to the buyer who actually placed the order (9 times out of 10 that would be me) because EVERYTHING is urgent...um no. My neighbor can't say 'no' & I am like that in a lot of ways too, however, because I'm systematic, requests fall into the queue.  Just because you do not get the same attention from me as you do from my neighbor doesn't mean I'm not doing my job. You are disrupting my neighbors' time to begin with  & basically going through "the back door" to get what you want. If you're going to be shady like that, don't pass it off that I'm not doing my job. You are not ALWAYS going to be put on the top of my list of things "to-do" just because you feel like you deserve to be. My job & time is just as important as yours...get over it.
Third, just because I do not "speak" to you on the phone doesn't mean that I am ignoring you...especially if you have already received communication from me via email. I've been here over a year - you would think by now, people would have figured out I'm more of an electronic person...but just because that doesn't fit into everyone elses mold, I'm not doing my job. Oh & whenever I need to assistance from these people, do they jump? Um, no. But do I go whining to their boss or bug the hell out of them until they take care of me? No. Yes, I know there are exceptions to the rule, but for the most part this is the daily occurrence that I get to deal with.
Lastly, maybe the report that I look at constantly, everyday, doesn't need to be done "faster" or implying I'm not able to carry the load...maybe, just maybe, open your big head & try to understand there are other factors which play a role in my everyday work flow! Maybe if I didn't have to wait on other departments to do their job correctly and then have to "double check" their work again or if I was the only customer my vendors had & they would drop everything they were doing just to accommodate me, then just maybe I would have quotes back in a millisecond & prints would be correct & everything would just run smoothly...just saying. Why do people have be such big babies & always try to point fingers, never taking any responsibility & attempt to throw you under the bus?

And it's a mystery as to why I dislike people & am agitated with my job & question if this is really what I'm suppose to be doing in life...am I supposed to just be content with things as they are & not ever be truly happy or experience "never working a day in your life?

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Arts & crafts time!

I have finished my Anthropologie inspired snow globes! Super easy & fun!

Booty call!

Seriously - unless you are a famous rapper or in a rap video, there is absolutely no reason you should be wearing hot pants or a skirt out to dinner where your coochie hangs out.
Especially when it is 20 degrees outside. Definite fashion DON'T in my book!

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Now this is the life...

Oh my girls are soo hilarious! I wish I could have stayed with them the rest of the day!

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Checks and balances in the workplace

Why is it there are always too many chiefs & not enough Indians? It's pretty bad when the movie "Office Space" is dead on with a typical day in the office for me. Is it absolutely necessary for 3-5 different people to ask me the same damn question or ask me if I'm ordering something off the report that I look at everyday & am responsible for?!
I had always wanted to be a buyer..but they never tell you it's not as glamorous as you might think. Everything is your fault, you have to jump when know one else does & pull miracles out of your ass. Now don't get me wrong - I am thankful for my job & the people I work with - I just feel like I hit a wall & everyday it seems I resent what I do just a little bit more. Maybe one day it will get better - until then, I will continue to see stupid people & they will continue to irritate me.

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It's going to be a white Christmas!

I love Christmas time for many reasons - but this year I have tapped into my creative side & am making decorations myself & DIY gifts!
These are felt snowflake garlands (they never tell you that a project is tedious! Lol) & I think they came out pretty good :)

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I saw this at Wally-world & I love it! Who doesn't need a Hello Kitty clock in their home? lol

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Arts & Crafts time again!

For some odd reason, I have been super motivated to try out some DIY projects.

Anthropologie necklace
1st pic is original
2nd pic is my creation

Then, check out my ghetto scrap holder! I got tired of all my stuff that I am currently working on just scattered all over my living room (yes, I do my crafts there because my "craft" room is still not put together)

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What it must be like...

I have always had a love for fashion & beautiful things...but I suppose I'm not like most females in the industries. I hate drama, not aggressive & I guess I just never really fit in. But I love it. Its hard not to envy or be jealous of celebrities, & I try no to be, but I can't help but wish my life could be fabulous. I mean, I know that they have there own issues & may be an even harder life because they are always under scrutiny.
I don't necessarily want to be famous, just be able to work around them & still be a part of the wonderful world of fashion. I don't know how some get so lucky, but I dream of becoming a makeup artist & successful, but I don't think I'm destined for anything spectacular. This really has no purpose, just sucks to wish in the impossible.
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Arts & Crafts time!

I guess the spirit of Christmas has taken over & I've tuned into my creative side! Lol

First up: Anthropologie necklace inspiration - pic 1: Anthropologie pic 2: my creation :)

Next up: snowflake felt garlands. This is still a work in progress (wow, they don't tell you how tedious it is LOL!) and messy!

That's it for now! Can't wait for my next project!

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Ashton Kutcher's alleged affair (one of them) w/ Sara Leal

Ok - seriously? I admit that yes, I do like reading "People" magazine & sometimes celebrity gossip is entertaining, but not something I dwell on. However, with the Ashton/Demi debacle going on, the affair drew my attention. As I watch the following video I cringe with the thought "this 22 yr old makes females look bad" & I wanted to slap her over the head! Of course you played a part in the divorce - might not have been the main cause, but a cause nonetheless. That is like saying that the baby mamma of my ex husband had nothing to do with our divorce...um...had my ex husband not stuck his thing where it should not have been, we more than likely would have been able to work on our issues.
For someone who doesn't like others to talk about their relationships....WTF! Dude! You publicly announced getting it on with a married man who just so happens to be famous. Let's put our big girl panties on & just say that you wanted your 5 min of fame & to brag that you slept with Ashton.

http://www.tmz.com/2011/11/24/ashton-kutcher-sara-leal-demi-moore

1st day of Christmas my true love gave to me...

Two Faced eyeshadow primer! Love this stuff! The texture is light & creamy, yet holds your makeup in place

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The aftermath of Black Friday

People are seriously crazy. Young girl being trampled in electronics, women using mace to get the advantage on xbox's, and a shoot out in Walmarts...come on man - is it seriously worth it? Did the general public ever think that just maybe, the sales are really NOT that awesome, things are NOT going to sell out forever & is this crap worth hurting other people for? Umm that would be a negative - I am a full believer in online shopping & I would rather pay the extra couple of bucks than stand in line for over an hour.

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Bringin' Piggy back! Miss Piggy that is!

Check out these GORGEOUS new nail polishes that O.P.I will be releasing for Fall/Winter this year! I am in love! I'm having my colors ordered already!

Hello Kitty Microwave!

How stinking cute is this!??? Target baby!

"Wild" Sperry's!

I LOVE these! I so would have gotten them if they had my size - but I have to have redonculus small feet! Lol

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Beauty on a Budget!

Over 90 products under $10! Great ideas for stocking stuffers or addition to your own collection! You can shop with my online, in the comfort of your own home & receive FREE shipping! Also, any new customers who registers on my site & places an order of $75 or more (not including tax) will recieve a FREE Mary Kay brush set collection from me! (Offer only applies to 1st purchase) Debit/Credit cards are accepted.

www.marykay.com/sara_murray

Gwen Stefani on target...or at Target - Harajuku mini for Target!

How awesome is this!? Gwen is one of my idols! I have loved Gwen since the No Doubt days & my parents said I was too young to go to a concert :( Oh well. Her & Gavin are definitely a rockstar couple!
Maybe she will come out with an adult/junior collection next!

http://www.target.com/c/brand-shop-Harajuku-Mini-for-Target-girls/-/N-59vqt

Miss Piggy taking over MAC

How exciting is this! A limited edition Miss Piggy collection!
http://www.maccosmetics.com/whats_new/7882/index.tmpl

To Screen or Not to Screen...

It absolutely drives me bonkers to be on the phone...yes, I am part of that generation who texts, emails, etc. rather than actually speaking with another person. There are times however, that yes, speaking with someone is more appropriate but, majority of the calls I receive at work do not fall into that category. Just part of my quirkiness, I do not like to be disrupted to chat with someone on the phone. Besides the fact that any work related information that is sent via email helps keep record of any and all changes, questions and so forth, but it's a great way to CYA and it is easy to find vs. handwritten notes or post its that mysteriously "walk off" and you do not have to spend 10 min or longer trying to remember why you wrote that note down or what it is you were suppose to do. Like most, I have about a million things going on at once and more than one thought running through my head & things are easily forgotten. Below are the main reasons I hate when the phone rings:

Irritant #1: Repetitive calling (or psycho calling) - seriously people, if I did not answer the first time, more than likely I am not going to answer 2 seconds later. Then not leaving a stupid message as to what you are calling about! Anyone who has worked with me knows that I screen my calls - if they don't, then they are not very observant . In the amount of time that you have psycho called (4x in 10 mins) you could have typed out a simple emailed & EMAILED me...probably would get an answer a lot quicker.

Irritant #2: Infamous Paging tactic: so you think that since I did not answer my direct line, calling the front desk to have me paged is the best thing to do...maybe if you want to just piss me off even more. My voicemail states "I'm either away from my desk or on the other line. Please leave a message & I will return your phone call"...where in that statements hints at having me paged? The sky is not falling, there is not a fire & heaven forbid I am on break or in the bathroom. And, by the time you get me on the phone you know that I am not happy with you.

Irritant #3: Causing a commotion (i.e. paging tactic) for a NON-EMERGENCY: If I have to answer a page & all you needed was to ask how the weather is, I might just have to beat you with a stick (ok, not really but that makes me want to punch something). The world does not revolve around you & I certainly cannot (and will not) just drop everything for you because you think it is important...what's that saying? Your lack of planning is not my emergency or something like that.

Irritant #4: Calling & bothering another employee to "transfer" your phone call to me: How rude are you? Did you eat paint chips as a child? My co-workers are NOT your secretary.

Oh the office life...


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Book worm!

Oh how I missed just sitting down & reading a good book! Life just gets so crazy sometimes & time just flies by. Now, I know I'm a hermit & don't have much of a life, but I do enjoy my time at home. I've always been a home-body.
I'm reading "The Help" & I can't put it down! It truly is amazing how we, humans, treat each other & every other living creature. Who do we think we are? Why do we have to resort to violence? Because we are like sheep - we follow whoever is in front, sometimes without question. It is also amazing how far we have NOT come from the '60's (and even before) in the way we treat others & racism & hatred are still around today. Isn't the point of evolution to learn from mistakes & grow from them?

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Walking in a spider web...

The words to the infamous 'Spiderwebs' by No Doubt could not be more true with the number of phone calls I receive as a Buyer.

*Newsflash* Just because you call 10x in a row, does not mean that I'm going to answer damnit! If I don't answer it the first time, there is a reason. Just because you continuously call, does not make me want to take to you...now you have just pissed me off.

I love how your answering machine can have "....I'm either away from my desk or on the other line; please leave a msg."...yet they will still psycho call and/or have you PAGED which is the MOST aggravating thing in the office place!


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Mobile blogging

Just taking the next step to blogging...going mobile! Lol I found the blogger app & now maybe I'll be able to blog more often!

Arts & Crafts Monday!

Ok - so I'm attempting to become more involved w/ my creative side & DIY. My inspiration came from Anthropologie...



This is my interpretation

I have no idea why I can't get my pics to be straight, so again another sideways pic!

Corporate Bull....

Why is it so difficult for humans to be honest people? Or why do you have to sleep your way to the top? And most of all, is the bottom line really the most important aspect of a business? While I understand the point of running a business is to MAKE money, is it worth the livelihood of your employees and/or yourself? Just because you have a degree, doesn't mean that you are "smarter" than the typical blue color person or does it mean you are entitled to more pay. It pisses me off that companies will say anything that you want to hear to keep you around, but will still pay you jack crap.

Damn the man! Save the Empire!

Wanting something more...

Ever since my divorce, I've been trying to figure out who they hell I am & what I want to do in life...what is my purpose? As of now I don't feel like I'm here to do anything...stuck in a rut...watching everyone else living. Wondering how others get to be so lucky in life. How am I suppose to achieve any dreams I have when they all seem impossible, I'm a nobody w/o money? Don't get me wrong, I know God has blessed me since my divorce...it's just I feel like I'm too old to start over. All I want to do is something great - helps others in a positive way - I just don't think I will ever get there. I see others & how they talk about achieving their dreams but realistically, how many people actual make it? I would love to become a makeup artist, but have no idea how to get there. I'm trying to get my MK business up & running so I can fund this dream & hopefully one day help/own an animal sanctuary. Is that too much to ask for?
It's just one of those days I suppose.

Male vs. Female

The age old debate. What gets feminist everywhere twisted underpants everywhere. Seriously, WTH? Just because I happen to be a female, that does not mean I'm completely stupid, naive, & helpless. Women can do, if they chose to, any job, activity, etc., just as well & if not better than a man...but can men say the same thing? Um...no. Last time I checked a giant mass of bone & organs do not pop out of the penis.
I'm very well aware of the fact I do not know everything (don't tell anyone :) LOL), but to automatically assume I'm retarded & begin speaking to me in a demeaning way is messed up! I am just a big of a bitch (the equivalent to a dick), hardworking, EDUCATED, and the list could go on. Did we all forget was assuming does? Makes an Ass out of U & Me...not everything is as it seems. What if I spoke to a pro football player as if he was a neanderthal...all muscle no brains? Um, I'm sure I'd get my ass beat, but that is not how I was raised. I find that rude & completely unnecessary behavior. I have no idea about that person's life & characteristics, so forth. Or, just because someone has is "handicapped", does not make them lesser beings than you. Just saying.
But as a female, do not speak to me as if I am an adolescent when it comes to any topic of importance. Do not think you can charm my pants off for a better business deal. I don't care about the life you are living...I don't need to hear your life story so I may either praise you or hold your hand like a baby. Yes, we female folk fart, burp & scratch just as the male....ok maybe not scratch...

That's my rant...

Office space...

I am so tired of the corporate bullshit and office politics. Why is it that someone who has been with a company for over 20 years, does nothing, & isn't expected to do anything, still has a job & is a supervisor? WTH? Just because you have been employeed somewhere for like ever doesn't mean little permission slips for "not do anything today" are handed out. Why is this acceptable? Escpecially with so many people who are in need of jobs, taking jobs w/ a pay cut, etc. just to feed themselves & family. Just another reason why people suck - there will always be corporate bullshit, it's always about the bottom dollar, & people will always be "favored" over others....whether they work their way up or suck their way up.

Birds of a feather...or whatever the saying is!

My girls are soo stinking hilarious! Picture this...2 pugs (1 just a little smaller than the other) standing at full attention, watching a feather float down...both of their heads moved in slow motion following the feather! Then my smaller one tried to attacked it once it hit my couch! LOL Just thought I would share - my girls make me so happy!

Just another brick in the wall...

You finally get to the destination that you believe is where you should be for the moment, everything is settling in, & then BAM! Life changing decision time. Is it stupid to think about marriage again? Is it smart to pack up & move because his job is transferring him? Or, if it's suppose to be then the long distance issue we should get through, right? I don't know if I'm ready to make big decisions like that...of course, will there ever be a time when I am? Am I truly not able to make that kind of decision because of my recovery or is it because I'm absolutely terrified of change again.
I don't know what I'm suppose to do. I keep thinking that God will show me the way through these types of trials but at the same time, my impatience & doubt overwhelm me & I can't see Him anymore. Am I not praying right? I know I have far to go in my spiritual journey & I'm undeserving, but how am I suppose to get there, whereever there is, when more & more "bricks" are thrown at me? I just wish I knew what the right answer is.

You get what you pay for...

My dream is to become a Hollywood makeup artist & to be able to utilize more & more animal friendly products....yeah, I know - that's probably completely ridiculous & will probably never happen. But anyways, with that dream in mind I have been watching & learning as much as I can about makeup application & tricks/tips. The latest discovery I made was - when it comes to lipstick & longevity, don't skimp w/ the checkbook.
I sell Mary Kay & I'm trying to get my business up & running, just not having any luck at the moment. So I try to wear a different "day" look everyday when I leave for the office. One day last week, I wore one of the new Mary Kay LTD. ED. lipstick that counts, I can't remember which color, created a nice base w/ a Mary Kay lip pencil, & the color was amazing! It stayed on ALL day! That's even after drinking who knows how many cups of tea or coffee, lunch etc. I had to use makeup remover when I was taking my face off to remove most of the color! I did touch up just slightly, once after lunch. Of course I typically re-powder my face & put a little gloss on...but other than I that, I was really impressed w/ the color.
The next day, I thought I would try the N.Y.C brand...I found a beautiful rich blueish pinky color & I wanted to try it out. I used N.Y.C. lip pencil to create my base & slapped on this in your face pink color...yes, the rest of my face was very neutral. I touched up twice before lunch & as I was leaving the restaurant to go back to the office, I just whipped out my little mirror (I bought myself a new "grill" so I always check if there is anything in my braces after I eat) & it wasn't a pretty sight. By that time, most of the lipstick itself wore off, leaving behind a blueish tint, but the worst part was...I was left behind w/ those harsh lines of lip liner (oh you know what I'm talking about)! I had filled in my lips completely that morning w/ the lip liner prior to the lipstick (the trick to insure that would not happen) & that still wore off!
I immediately put on a tinted lip balm of mine from Mary Kay (Peony) which helped my lips out until I got home. Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to bash another makeup company, I still think that pink is beautiful, it's just not for an all day thing for me.

 NYC

Taking responsibility...putting your big girl panties on...

What is wrong w/ the world today? We're greedy & always pointing the finger at somebody else...how amazing it could be if people actually took responsibility for their actions. Here are just a few examples of how completely twisted & ridiculous we can be:

1. McDonald's: lawsuit over spilled hot coffee...HELLO? You ordered a coffee - it's going to be hot! At worst, McDonald's should pick up the tab for dry cleaning.
2. McDonald's (or any other fast food restaurants that kids like): adults being angered because of the growing number of obese children, blame McDonald's for making their children fat...okay - really? They are not obese because they sit in front of a TV or computer or on the phone for hours, being completely inactive. Or, could it not be that adults buy that crap food for their children because it's convenient? What happened to PE in school? Or kids actually playing OUTSIDE...of course, now you have to worry about some perv abducting your child - jackwagons! McDonald's did not make your kids fat (ok, so they may ENABLE the lifestyle, but they're doing their job - marketing & making money - that's what companies do), YOU as the parent allowed your child to become obese (now, I'm not saying that is always the case, but in the scenario parents just bitching b/c their kid is fat & they've done nothing about it - they just want to sue & get money). Who drives them to these places of fattening food? Who, the majority of the time, is the one you makes the decision of where to eat for the family? Who funds these meals? Um, that would be the parent. Parents are solely responsible for their children until they leave the nest (and even after then in other aspects) so don't blame the corporation for doing its job. QUIT FEEDING YOUR KIDS FATTY, UNHEALTHY FOODS & THEN ALLOW THEM TO DO ABSOLUTELY NOTHING THAT WOULD BURN CALORIES, ETC. Simple logic. Quit eating crap food & maybe your body will not turn to crap. To lose/maintain weight, you must exhort MORE calories than what you have put in.
3. Entertainment/Music: Hate to break it to you, but the entertainment industry is a reflection of our society today. Where do you think they come up w/ the ideas? I do believe to a certain extent, the industry can be influential among children, but as a parent - it is your duty to a) know where the hell & what the hell your kids are up to & b) teach the difference between reality & fantasy. Just because I listen to Manson, does not make me an atheist or encourages me to go out & kill people etc. We've all seen/heard the stories in the news. First off, if your child honestly believes that Manson or whoever is "speaking" to them, you have a different problem on your hands. Just like the fast food industry, these people are doing their job...Manson is actually a very intelligent person...they are SELLING themselves...they are the PRODUCT. Therefore, an image must be created & maintained to continue entertaining the public. So, when your kid goes & shoots up a school or is out snorting coke or whatever stupid thing they can do, it's not because Manson told them to do it. A teenage girl doesn't become a hoochie mama solely based off of what Britney Spears wears or sings about.
4. Blaming the victims: Ok, this one is a touchy subject for me. Rape is RAPE - there is not a middle area on this subject. It is either consensual or non-consensual...you either enjoyed sex or you could sue the other person for assault & battery. This happens unfortunately everyday, every minute to females all over the world. Many cases go untold for many different reasons...but this is where human ignorance just pisses me off - IT'S NOT THE VICTIM'S FAULT! Victim: the person who suffered through a destructive or injurious action; a person who is deceived or cheated, as by his or her own emotions or ignorance, by the dishonesty of others; a person or animal sacrificed or regarded as sacrificed...where, in any part of this definition does it say or imply that "they got what they deserved" or "they were dressed provocatively & I couldn't keep my pants on so it's their fault"? You get my drift. Women (and men) can wear whatever the hell they want to! (ok, maybe not everywhere in the world but at least here in the US) Just because a female goes out to a club wearing a tight skirt, low cut top & no underwear does not mean they want to be gang banged outside of the club in a field. Yes, females dress knowing that whatever they choose (the look they are going for) will draw either positive or negative attention...and there are just too many reasons why they do it and thought process of a rapist to get into here....BUT THAT STILL DOES NOT GIVE ANOTHER PERSON THE RIGHT TO FORCE THEMSELVES ONTO ANOTHER! So, because little girls are put into pageants & wear costumes that would make a pedophiles day, it's ok for the pedophile to go up on stage & have their way with the child? Ummmmm....NO! A little girl (12 or 13 - can't remember) is video taped being gang banged (train - whatever) by 15 different men....one after the other. The defense for the boys included comments such as, the girl was dressed provocatively, or my son was led to believe she was 17 (ok, what 12-13 yr old could pass as 17? Even then, if the 17 yr old was in the same situation, it would still be rape) or where were her parents, blah blah blah. I do not know of one female who would want to have a train done on them just for the hell of it...the only reason for a train is for making a porn video (that's in the actual Adult Film Industry, not your at home videos).
Maybe the little girl should not have been wearing what she was wearing, or should not have been out in that area at that time, etc. & yes, the parent(s) should be held accountable for her. But, that is completely irrelevant to the fact 15 MEN forced themselves on her one after another in one evening. Again, females (and males) can wear whatever they want to & they should be able to do so without harm. Where were the parents of the men who couldn't keep their pants on? They knew what they were doing was wrong - now this girl gets to grow up w/ the memory of being violated by 15 men...do you know how many issues this little girl will probably have growing up? Just saying.

That's all I got for this soap box.

Pink is my favorite color!

Pink is EVERYWHERE! Getting ready to show off some Breast Cancer Awareness...& yes, pink just so happens to be my FAVORITE color! Here are some 'pink' things that I must obtain this weekend!

And apparently I have yet to figure out how to upload pics the right side up! I just edited these pics on my desktop but they still uploaded sideways! Ugh

Digging through the mess...

Literally...my house is trashed. I'm trying to gather some things to put in a garage sale tomorrow, but I have no idea what to get rid of! How do you choose? Also, I've been trying to authenticate a Burberry tote, & everything seems to check out, but I'm not 100% sure & it is aggravating that there is no way to know! Argh!

Besides all of this, my co-worker is being a big "B". Not really sure what the deal is, but I am so tired of arrogant, ass kissers in the corporate world. Can't you get anywhere by being honest?!

Getting Crafty...

My head feels like it is going to EXPLODE! My creative juices are flowing & mixed w/ a little anxiety & extreme personality, sometimes is very overwhelming! I mean, when do you have time to do all the stuff you want to do everyday and/or learn everyday? There are just sooo many choices & examples & blogs out there, how do you weed through all of it? I have stacks of books I haven't finished reading or haven't started to read & many more that I want to purchase & read!
So, here it goes...starting tomorrow, I am going to attempt (1) craft item (I'm not sure which one yet), read a little & anything else I can fit in there! LOL

Seriously...what is the point?

Here we are, another day, & no closer to finding my purpose in this life or what I even have to offer. Why is it that some are so lucky to be living out their dreams or making a difference, while others are starving to death, & more just going through the motions of day to day life. Don't get me wrong, I know I have been blessed & brought back from the ashes by God, but is mediocre all I'm destined for? If so, why can't I accept that & be satisfied? How did the movie stars or whatever get "picked" to do what they do & live a life of luxury - why are they any better than those who are starving on the streets? Now, I'm not trying to knock the work of movies stars & such, they do work hard & live their lives in the spolight, it's just why them & not me? I know that probably does not make any sense, but it does in my own head.
I had spent 23 years of my life being someone that everyone else wanted me to be, or how I thought they would want me to be so maybe I could be accepted somewhere. Now, I have the opportunity to be whoever I want to be & do what I want to do, but I have no idea where to start or how to achieve it. I've never thought much of myself or even given myself credit where I probably deserve it. I don't think I have any talents or skills or anyting really to offer in life...so why was I created?

I know I will probably never know the answer to my questions, but I just don't understand why I couldn't have been dealt with cards that would help me do what I think I want to do. I'm not really "living", I'm not sure if I even know how to do that. How do you figure out what your purpose is in life? How do you know what it is that God wants from/of you? It hasn't been that long since my divorce & complete mental breakdown & I know that it will take quite some time & patience to mend the damage that has been done to my innerself, but I just feel like it's too late for me...too late in life to start over. The world is also full of ugliness & hatred - I find it very difficult to want to be around people (even though deep down, I do want that social interaction) because I see humans for what we are & it just makes me angry or sad. I have a HUGE trust issue - I tend to shut down & lock everyone else out.

Do we create our own destinies (with guidance & help from God of course) or, are we already "pre-packaged" in the mold He wants us to be? Is it really possible to be whatever you want to be when you grow up?

Another unproductive day...

So here it is, another Saturday in which I have accomplished nothing. Although, I did get my new BB Dakota jacket in the mail (yes, the one Bella wore in Twilight!) & yes, I'm a complete dork! With Breaking Dawn comng up, I'm having to prepare my 'Twilight' attire...LOL

I did however read the new PEOPLE magazine out & let me just say...WOW! Parents are really dressing their little girls up like hookers! (See Toddlers & Tiaras). Not really sure what to think about all that.

My 2 big girls have made it very difficult for me to do anything today, but nap. They are just so FLUFFY! I love my girls! They are the best companions ever! Even though Mama can clear out a room with her gas! LOL I've always wondered why dogs turn in a circle before they lay down...I should google that.

Well, finally off to bed...got to get my beauty rest so I can 'drive into town' (yee haw!) tomorrow to pick up some crafting goodies! Woohoo! Sounds just fascinating!

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DIY weekend riot!

Well, apparently I've been watching too much YouTube! This past weekend I cut my own hair (which didn't turn out that bad) & cutting/recon t-shirts! Oh my! I'm at least being a productive hermit! Hahaha
So, if anyone has any DIY projects to suggest, please let me know!

Hello Kitty!

I HAVE TO HAVE THIS! This is the most awesome thing I've seen in forever!

http://www.baghaus.com/product/Hello-Kitty-Quilted-Face-Bag-in-White/Best_sellers

Pink everywhere!

OMG! So, my new favorite nail polish is 'Posh Pink' buy Rimmel...it's sooo pretty on!

Just like Winnie the Pooh...

On a mini vacation visiting a good friend of mine & her 2 chihuahas (+ a foster) my girls took no time in making themselves feel at home. Well, needless to say, not everything was made for them...Bella tried & tried so hard to fit thru the doggie door but to no avail! lol Thankfully she did not get stuck or break the door :)