Princess & the paparazzi

It's funny as a little girl, we grow up thinking we want to be a princess - it would be a fairy tale. While some aspects may turn out that way, the ugly face of being royalty rears its ugly face. I feel bad for Kate & think the press & paparazzi should be ashamed of themselves. They did cross a red line & the editors knew it. SHE WAS SUNBATHING WITH HER HUSBAND IN A PRIVATE LOCATION - my goodness! It's not like she was taking her clothes off at a titi bar. And just because a photographer with an extremely high tech long lense camera can capture an intimate moment, doesn't mean they always should.
Yes, I know that people who are of that status, being in the public's eye is just part of the job. However, I think very one is entitled to some privacy. But what's done is done, & I don't think Kate has anything to be ashamed of or apologetic for. You go on with you bad self & let the girls hang loose as you spend the afternoon with your hubby!

Excuses of a cheater...

Ok, so yes...another rant about Kristen Stewart & Rob Pattinson estranged predicament...because like a lot of other folks, for some reason celebrity gossip highly entertaining. Man, I really need to get a life! But anyways, that's a completely different topic - back to the cheating girlfriend & heartbroken boyfriend.
So of course now the BIG topic of discussion is, will he take her back? Should he take her back? What other excuse can we come up with as to why Kristen cheated w/ that director...blah blah blah... I came across this on one of the many gossip-y cheesy websites (and no, that's not an insult) & it made me start to wonder, how many excuses have been made from a cheater? Are there like your go-to lines, like "It was an accident" or "somehow my pants fell down & ended up inside her?" weird...or are there actual legit excuses? Of course, key word here is "excuses". Well, on this particular site, the catchy headline was "Kristen was seduced by Rupert" or whatever his name is...BULLSHIT. Ok, maybe she was "seduced" but, isn't that what happens when flirting begins? It's not like this guy had control over her mind or forced her to do anything...they are both at fault.
Hold the phone! Why is it that Kristen gets all the heat but the MARRIED guy gets a small portion in a headline? He's married! I'm sorry, not that cheating is ok in any situation, but he's married - she isn't....ummm am I the only one who sees this? Anyways, this is all a very cliche situation....young, vulnerable actress, handsome & charming director/producer...and it really doesn't help that she was quoted not long before that she wished something would fuck up in her life or something along those lines. But again, why is it just her getting all the heat? Hey Rupert! You're MARRIED! And I don't want to hear the excuse of "well, we work so much together & a relationship is bound to form" blah, blah, blah...you have a choice. Yes, I agree that temptation may be more concentrated when working on a movie set, w/ the same people for an extended period of time, but that's no different than a normal, workaholic dad who doesn't come home until 9pm & leaves at the butt crack of dawn to get back to the office. Or someone in the military who is on active duty, out of the country...they have wives/husbands & children back home that worry everyday if they're going to come back...and they don't even get to speak to one another on a regular basis. Point being, temptation is everywhere. You choose whether to let in a snake or bash it over the head before it gets to the door. Does anyone remember the saying "don't shit where you eat?"

I don't think Kristen is a slut or whore or whatever else people are saying about her. Now, I will admit I think she is a complete dumbass...I mean, DAMN...you're dating Rob Pattinson!

What it must be like to be wealthy celebrity...ahhh....but back to Earth...shit happens. People make mistakes. Does this mean she gets a free pass? Um no. But I do think people need to back the hell up, especially since the majority of those involved in the gossip ring don't even know her personally & it's not like the first "cheating" scandal to happen in Hollywood, nor the last. I believe that yes, people can make a change in their life & right wrongs & all that...but cheating brings it to a new level. Trust has been broken. Once a cheater, always a cheater. How do you forgive? Considering this is the only option in which the Lord finds a divorce acceptable (no, that doesn't mean He wants you to get a divorce or advocates it), trusting a cheater is a pretty big thing to do. I don't think I could do it.

My ex-husband cheated on me with an employee of his - sent a picture of his penis to her on the night of our one year anniversary - classy huh? I fought for 4 months before I had to leave that house. I went back and forth with the idea of "omg, would God want me to do it this way?" or "a vow wasn't conditional, so I didn't say that I would love you - unless you cheat on me - so is it right for me to give up?". Finally, I figured God would kick me in the ass when it was time to go...and He did. They ended up pregnant...I was even willing to accept that baby as ours & no one would have to know, if that's what he wanted, to save our marriage & that I would have to forgive what he did. That just makes me crazy, but knowing he would still be working with this woman, how do you believe that the affair's over? And on top of that, being the one cheated on sucks....for many reasons...but it's embarassing. No, I didn't get a public apology over national TV from my ex-husband, hell he would still deny he did anything wrong, but never the less - still embarassing.
Looking back, I think I would have felt even more like a fool for staying with him. I also believe everything happens for a reason. As I said in my last rant, there is someone out there that wouldn't cheat on you in the first place. I know that's hard to believe, hell I'm still working on it.

All in all, there really is no good excuse for Kristen's actions so it's pointless to continue to search for one & play the "woe is me" angle. If he choses to take her back, that's his perogative, but she's owned up to it, for the most part, so quite trying to make lame excuses for her. Don't get me wrong, if there was a chance in hell that I would/could ever meet Rob & him fall madly in love with me, I'd say "move over Kristen"!, but that is just about as likely to happen when I wake up w/ blonde hair & big boobs ...which would be never. I'll still be crazy little Asian self.  They were very cute together & it's weird thinking of them being with someone else...maybe that's just the "Twi-hard" in me. But as the Twilight series comes to an end, maybe this to had an expiration date.

Enough of my random ranting - just stupid thoughts - & actually I wouldn't really care if I ever met Rob & him fall madly in love w/ me, it would just be cool to hang - he seems like a cool cat. I think I could hang with Kristen too - but I would have to apologize for drooling & staring off in a stupid daze while secretly hoping there wasn't competition...just saying.

Rare birth of baby dolphin caught on tape!

How beautiful is this?! It is amazing how life is born & for just a moment, the world doesn't seem so ugly...


http://www.grindtv.com/outdoor/blog/34979/incredible+underwater+video+shows+dolphins+birth/

Amazing creatures - rare albino catfish

While this story is pretty neat & exciting, I can't help but wonder why this rare 180 lb catfish could not have been let go & live...it doesn't exactly say it wasn't released, but it doesn't say it was. What an amazing creature God has made...


http://www.grindtv.com/outdoor/blog/35058/extremely+rare+180-pound+albino+catfish+landed+in+spain/

Is it really that shocking Kristen would cheat on Rob?

No. Not in the least. First off, this is Hollywood people! So many temptations, endless opportunities & egos out the window. She is also a very young 22 year old that went from Indie to Big screen almost over night. Nothing excuses her actions or the director's. There is no good apology. It's hard enough being cheated on in the "normal" life, but to have it blasted all over the world, spreading like fire & dealing with it publicly definitely brings on more pressure on how you choose to deal with it.

Being someone who had a husband who did have an affair with another woman, not to mention having a baby while we were still married, this just sucks. I'm all for forgiveness & all that stuff, but something like cheating is almost unforgivable (although there is a difference of forgiving someone who has done wrong & being a doormat who continuously takes them back). How can you ever trust them again? It humiliating enough to be the partner who has been cheated on, can you imagine being outed like that? Now that's taking embarrassment to a whole new level. Yes celebrities make the choice to do the career they do & should expect paparazzi, gossip & being under the microscope (it's just part of the job) but I do think they should be allowed some privacy...especially with things like this. Don't get me wrong...I love celebrity gossip just as much as the next person...but I do feel bad for Rob. Hopefully the good Lord will be with him & mend the damage. As for Kristen, it really doesn't matter how she feels at this point. She made a decision that she knew was wrong, she's an adult & there are consequences to every action. I do hope that the good Lord is with her through this time as well & that Rob forgives her for him to be able to move on. I'm not saying Rob should take Kristen back...actually I would have to say you are F*$%ING RETARD if you do. Once a cheater, always a cheater. People don't change. I'm sorry, but if you love someone & devote yourself to them, straying should not even be an option. I know temptation is out there...we're human...we mess up...but you choose to act. You choose to follow through. And if it was just a "caught up in the moment" crap, then it wouldn't have happened multiple times. It's like playing w/ fire...you don't just "accidentally" fall into some one's bed.
I also think the whole public apology is bullshit...it's PR...if you were really sorry, why would you humiliate the other person even MORE than what you've already done? She's more worried about him forgiving her & blah blah blah so SHE can have a "clear" conscience...so SHE can feel better...this isn't about how SHE feels & it's a selfish move. What's worse is reading that she believes she can win Rob back...umm...cocky much? To me, that is just making him look even more like a helpless fool. What also gets me is that people like Kristen have the whole world offered to them on a plate...why do stupid shit & throw it away (there is soo much more to this but that is for another soap box day)? Maybe cheating on your boyfriend isn't the worse thing, but you were dating ROB! Hello?! And umm, your director is MARRIED w/ kids...did even cross Kristen's mind? Isn't there something wrong w/ a married man making out w/ someone else?
Of course, Rob will many females to choose from - I wish I could be a potential LOL but alas, I am not one of the lucky people born into wealth or status etc. Maybe one day I'll be there...as I dream to be a makeup artist for the stars :)  and I will not one of the millions of people "stalking" Rob (even though it would be so AWESOME to meet him! Or even just see him in person) - just saying
My opinion, Rob kick her to the curb. Move on. There's someone out there who WOULDN'T cheat on you in the first place.


*Unicorns & Glitter*

Everything is fine...

This was definitely not what I expected when I first watched this movie. I'm not sure I really had any expectations. But the scene that really stuck out to me (& still makes me a little teary eyed) is the part where Dinero is walking through the subway (I think that's where the tunnel was) & he stops to give what appears to be a homeless kid money. At first the kid just takes it & it would have been fine if Dinero would have kept on walking...but he didn't.
Now, what he said is true & the kid should've been thankful for the generosity, but based off my opinion of humans I don't think would have said "you know, you could say thank you" to the kid. So the kids gets up & tries to assault Dinero (poor old man - his character) saying that he had seen more money in Dinero's wallet & was going for it, but thankfully he keeps the kid from doing major damage. However, the meds he needs to take were in his coat pocket & of course fell out. Ok - I know it is just a movie & all that, but why would u put something that can determine life or death in a coat pocket without it being zipped? O course, I'm not sure there's a better place for them. Anyways, so of course the punk kid steps on the meds & crushes them & then walks off as Dinero was saying he needed those (slight plea) dropping down to scoop up any remains of powder he could. In the movie he wasn't supposed to be traveling (which he was) & after this incident it only makes sense that something would happen...he was the hospital - almost died.
But enough about the movie - this scene just pisses me off! What a little dirt bag! The sad thing is this type of thing happens everyday. Then, why would you attack an old man? What the hell is wrong with you? Go get a damn job like the rest of us. I feel so bad for Dinero's character - it makes me want to jump in & deal with the kid.
This scene irks me because there are mean & ugly & hateful people out there. You can't trust anyone. That "homeless" guy on the corner could be your average middle class man who makes a decent living, but does this on the "side" for extra income. Or what about the people who use their children out on the streets to get money from strangers. It's just sick.
It would be so great if we actually could help one another & be able to trust the intention of the other person - God tells us to give & care for the needy too. But we put ourselves in potential danger so what do you do?

That was just my rant on shady people.

*Unicorns & Glitter*

Stupid Boy....never hit a woman

This is just awesome! Way to go Shirley!


http://news.softpedia.com/news/Shirley-Manson-of-Garbage-Cuts-Concert-Short-to-Tell-Off-Rude-Fan-272648.shtml


My heart breaks for these women. What is wrong w/ men? How about you keep you penis to yourself & maybe the women wouldn't be protesting about this particular issue.
http://abcnews.go.com/International/wireStory/alarming-assaults-women-egypts-tahrir-16512433

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/47717050/ns/world_news-mideast_n_africa/t/new-egypt-mobs-sexually-assault-women-impunity/

Fun in the sun

I think my body has gone into shock...it actually received natural vitamin D today! Just got back from the local water park. For a small town it's really pretty nice. Great place to people watch & try to catch up on my magazine reading LOL

Now it's time to get ready for the local carnival - I really dislike carnivals. But I tell ya, those carnies know how to work it for their money. I have to give them props.

Hope you had a sunny day up too!

*Unicorns & Glitter!*

What are you lookin' at Popeye?!

Seriously - what is up with people who just stare at you in a waiting room with this stupid, dopey look on their face? Or the people who bring in their whole family, one being a new patient, & they ALL stand at the front desk where you are suppose to sign in - which of course is now blocked & they look at you waiting like you're an idiot. It's one thing to glance & notice people, but didn't anyone else's parents teach them it's not polite to STARE at random people?! Just saying.

It's not like these people are the sweetest things - if you're going to stare at someone, might as well smile at them. I'm not saying I'm Susie miss sunshine, but damn - have some common courtesy people!

That's my rant

*Unicorns & Glitter*

Monday Morning Nightmare!

What could be the worst thing to be out of once you get into your office Monday morning? COFFEE!
But hopefully the pot will be full by the time I make it to the break room :)

*Unicorns & Glitter*

TGIF! Why are the short weeks always take the longest to end?

Oh Fridays....what we look forward to after every 5 workdays...this is the weekend after Memorial Day...there need to be  more 3 day weekends enforced I think. So to catch up on the past weekend, I took a last minute trip to see my boyfriend. Had a nice relaxing weekend...went shopping of course! LOL Bought wayyy tooo much, but hey...that's ok! LOL
He surprised me w/ this pillow pet (yes, I'm a sucker for stuffed animals...at least they're not real - I would take in all animals if I could & I would definitely be that crazy lady!)

Then, he had some pink flowers (I LOVE PINK!) in a mustache koozie! I heart the 'stache'!

The week has been pretty uneventful other than my home down time....I've been a crafting fool! I'm teaching myself to sew & because I'm OCD, I can't stop a project once I get started...well, I do when I look at the time.

Then, to start off a Friday...I find money in my pocket! I love it when that happens! Plus, it was more than just a dollar or two :) Yay!

Hope you find money in your pockets!
*Unicorns & Glitter*

Total Chaos Thursday...

It's always a shocker when a company changes their employee handbook...there is always an up roar about something in the beginning. What pisses me off is that the 'Man' can create written rules, but then verbalize extensions to those rules that contradicts what is written & there's not a damn thing you can do about it. It's not the rules that bother me - I get it - it's when the 'Man' is being a prick just because & you have no choice but to go along with it because you can't afford to not work. While I understand it may be a petty thing, but the principle behind it is a much bigger issue. It's about the issue of people in power, the games we all have to play & the bs that goes with the corporate world.
Like John Mayer sings "...it's not that we don't care; we just know the fight ain't fair...". What else can they just "verbalize" & assume that we should already know when it's no where in the handbook & get written up for? That's my main concern. It is not like I go out of my way to break rules - hell, I hate getting in trouble & I hate disappointing others.
I also find it highly inappropriate for upper management to sit around a table bashing an employee when the employee did not know they were doing anything wrong in the first place. It's funny how rules/guidelines are put into place, yet there are different expectations depending on your rank.
I know this is human nature - I know it's a losing battle - it is just really frustrating & I don't understand people.

That's all.

Sandals vs Flip Flops...WTF Wednesday

Ok - so I think it's safe to say most fashionistas know the difference between these two foot wear choices. The reason I bring this up is because 'Corporate' decided they want to throw certain types of sandals into the flip flop category making them inappropriate in the work place. I'm sending a BIG BS out on that.
This particular employee handbook has divided examples into "acceptable" & unacceptable. Flip Flops fall under unacceptable - however, the handbook clearly states "sandals may be worn other than flip flops".

Dictionary.com
Flip flops:
"any backless, usually open-toed flat shoe or slipper"
"a flat, backless rubber sandal, usually secured on the foot by a thong between the first two toes"

Sandals
"a shoe consisting of a sole of leather or other material fastened to the foot by thongs or straps"
"any various low shoes or slippers"
"a light, low rubber overshoe covering only the front part of a woman's high heeled shoe"
"a band or strap that fastens a low shoe or slipper on the foot by passing over the instep or around the ankle"

A little bit of history from wiki:
Flip flops were fashioned after Japanese footwear (zoris) held onto the foot by 2 thongs that rise from the side of sole, meet & attach to the sole between the 1st & 2nd toe.
Sandals is footwear based on the type worn in the Roman Empire. Usually manufactured of leather, held onto the foot by several thongs across the instep & strap behind & above the heel.

Now I can understand the confusion - many similarities between the two - but when applying to a "rule", I don't think what is written should contradict what is being said as the "law". It has been decided that ANY shoe that has a thong between the toes will be considered a 'flip flop'. Um...do we not see the problem here? And yes, this isn't necessarily a MAJOR deal but it is the principal that irritates me. Either sandals are acceptable or not...just saying.

Below are pictures of the two different styles of shoes...can you tell which is a flip flop & which is a sandal? To me it is clear. What do you think?

At least it's hump day

So I took the day off to run errands & hang out with my boyfriend. (yes, I guess I'm trying to give him his last chance). The advantages of living in a small town:

1. Within 5 minutes of pretty much anywhere you need to go
2. Typically not a long wait
3. Rush hour traffic is like 5 cars backed up

Cons of living in a small town:

1. Not many places to go
2. Gas prices are outrageous
3. Small town political BS & everyone up in your business
4. Small minded, ignorant people seem to be more concentrated

As I wait here for my last minute ortho appointment, it's amazing to see how many unwelcoming people are sitting in one room. Don't get me wrong, part of it could be I'm shy & do not do week in large crowds by myself - & it's crazy how much we rely on technology. I believe almost every person in this room is using their cell phone...me included.

Just ready to go shopping now :)
That's my random rant for the day

*Unicorns & Glitter*

Busy as a bee

Ok - so maybe for the night I had actually been productive. I just don't know how people do it all? Like moms for instance. Full time job, taking care of home & family, exercising, blogging, crafting etc. I suppose I'm learning the value of every minute in each day.

Guess I'm going to have to stop sleeping when I get sad, depressed etc. whoa - part of the self cleansing thing after the divorce.

Been working on my craft projects - one at a time & actual finishing the project - not normal for my ADHD & high strung personality - designing an outfit for a photo shoot & working on make up looks for the shoot. I've been slacking with my YouTube channel but I'm hoping to start to post at least 1 video a week. I've at least been blogging more on my beauty site :)

And becoming a tad bit more involved with my Mk business - slowly but surely. At least getting everything organized! Ever since my divorce I've been a little more scatter brained & laid back with the OCD part of me. Weird. Everyday though, a little bit of me that was lost during that time creeps back in - but now I'm trying to be more "healthy" & seek God for guidance.

Time to hit the hay with my big girls!

*Pugs & Kisses*

More crafts!

A macramé bracelet is what's next! LOL I'm having so much fun actually creating something & slowly but surely working through all of my craft/project ideas :)


*Unicorns & Glitter*

Craft time!

During my lunch break today I decided to knock out one of the millions of projects that I want to do...this is what I did!
I love bows & I love leopard! Super easy & I find I'm relaxed while doing crafts...most of the time.

What will be next?


*Unicorns & Glitter!*

Friday night therapy

It's always good to get out & hang out with your friends...especially for this hermit. It's really hard to get me out of my home once I'm there. I've always been somewhat of a hermit, but not like this...not after the divorce.
Took a friend out with me to go to the "city" that's about an hour away...I normally go there every other week because that's where all the shopping is...Petsmart, Petco, Target, the mall, downtown antique/vintage shops & actual restaurants to enjoy.
My friend was going to look at a car for her daughter & I mainly went over there to do Mary Kay business, which fell through. People really irritate me sometimes.
But we continued to go do what we wanted too & had a good time. I haven't laughed so hard in a really long time. Laughter is a very good medicine :) That's my shopping therapy adventure.

*Unicorns & Glitter*

Size does really matter...

Body size that is...especially for women. The way we look can play a major role in what other people think of us...whether right or wrong. "Dress to Impress" is a true statement. But since we are flawed beings, I think we are taking this "judging" business to far. I read this article from Glamour magazine & found it very interesting. They did an intensive study about stereotyping based on a woman's weight: if you're overweight people think of you as lazy, sloppy, etc. If you're thin, people think that you are stuck up, snobby, bitchy. In reality, we really don't know about the other person unless we actually put forth the effort to get to know them. You can't truly believe you have figured someone out just by what they look like.

Take retail for instance. If a grubby, old, shabby man walks into a place like Neimans or Barney's, what do you think the initial reaction/thought would be among the sales reps? Oh he won't buy anything; Where's the commission? Why waste time helping them? Or, OMG they are a shoplifter or someone who is dangerous. I'm not bashing either one of these stores, they were just the first 2 higher end places I thought of. I worked retail for many years...hell, I worked for A&F before all the law suits - you want to talk about stereotyping & everything based off your appearance? Point being, I'm not above being judgemental, stereotyping etc. just like everyone else. So back to the shabby man - he gets frustrated no one helps him & leaves...turns out he was a VERY wealthy man (true story). Best example is Pretty Woman. Enough said.

I think every being "judges" - it's just humans who have the ability to take it to a more complex level & become malicious. This article revealed that overweight women were more likely to get less pay than a thinner woman...ok really? Women - we already have the battle of being "equal" to men in the workforce & being paid accordingly - why are we going against each other? It's really sad when numbers are put in writing & being able to "see" the prejudice going on amongst ourselves.

I don't think very highly of the human race at times because of all the bad & damage we can do & still do to each other & everything around us. Why can't we just all get along? Yes, that was a little cliche.  But it's absolutely ridiculous how women percieve other women or even percieve ourselves. Beauty comes from the inside, not out. And who is the one who gets to "decide" what attributes make a woman beautiful/hot/sexy? It's only been in the last 100 years that the shift towards super thin became ideal. This image that we blast everywhere in our society is unrealistic & a lot of times, not healthy. Why are you considered good looking/conceited etc. just because you are thin? Every body is different.

Just thought it was interesting to see just how much our appearance effects us.


*Unicorns & Glitter*

Life of convenience

It's amazing how lazy people are. Don't get me wrong, I'm definitely one of them! I am thinking this as I sit in a drive-thru at Pak-a-Sak. This is the fanciest gas station in the little town I live in & it's crazy how the drive-thru is always busy & the store front typically doesn't have many cars parked. I've seen people get like 2 bags of crap at the drive-thru & to me now that's a little much. That's like using a less than 10 items in the self check out at Walmart when you have a basket full of junk! Or how we will look all over the house for the remote control yet in all that time we can't just change the damn channel! LOL it's pretty amazing the silly things we do sometimes that we think save us time & yet sometimes it doesn't.
Had I just gone in the Pak-a-Sak I probably would have been out of there quicker - but the drive thru sounded nice & quite frankly I didn't really wan to exert any energy to move my ass out of my car. Just saying.

*unicorns & glitter*

How to embarrass yourself on the phone at the workplace...

Answer it like a jack-ass because the caller ID shows your co-worker's extension/name. Another point of why I hate phones.

When transferring calls in the work place, it is common courtesy to tell the person that you are going to transfer a call to them, at least give them a head's up, not just throw it out there & get blindsided - especially when it's a sales call & I don't know who this person is.

It's hard enough being a female in the workplace, oil field & small town, I'd rather not look like a complete idiot.

*Unicorns & Glitter*

WTF?? Dog nuptials?!

Don't get me wrong - I'm an avid animal lover - but this is a little much. 100 + friends & family members attended the Palm Desert Club house for the ceremony & celebration.

Total cost of wedding: $5,000!!! WTF

Ok, so maybe in the wedding sense, that's a pretty great deal, but a wedding for two dogs?! Come on! I don't even have $5,000 for myself much less for my 4-legged children.

In my opinion, that kind of money that is being used frivolously (yes, it's still frivolous no matter how important the owner feels about the hoopla) could have been donated to a sanctuary or animal shelter in need - there are definitely many out there to choose from.

What do you think? They look adorable though :)

*Unicorns & Glitter)





http://m.yahoo.com/w/news_america/blogs/sideshow/dogs-5-000-wedding-amenities-171017513.html?orig_host_hdr=news.yahoo.com&.intl=us&.lang=en-us

YouTube progression & other updates

To anyone who is thinking of putting out a YouTube channel & keeping up with it, know that it is very time consuming. I give props to all those who have channels that are regularly viewed & updated whether it be daily or weekly. Even blogging is time consuming!
I'm getting the hang of videos I think, but still trying to figure out my niche - my signature. Who knows if that will ever happen. I'm trying to get better at keeping it up to date, but my full time job takes up most of my time during the week (how do full time mom's do it? Kudos to you too!)
I know there is still much needed improvement in my personal life & I'm working on them. I'm also trying to figure out how to get where I want to be with makeup - but for now, I'm saving, saving, saving! As with anything, money is a huge factor. But I at least found something I enjoy doing, ties me back into the fashion world & find fascinating. I have a very big dream, I don't know which parts are achievable - if any - but I suppose that's why I have to try huh? It's hard to remember the blood, sweat & tears others who are successful went thru to get where they are - you just see how fabulous they are now.
I suppose it's back to work now.

*unicorns & glitter*

Mornings are not best time

I don't officially consider myself 'awake' until about 10 am on weekdays...I'm definitely not a morning person. I'm one to grumble & hit the snooze button 10x before actually getting out of bed & then stumbling into my bathroom.
Well, Esme it not any better :) its like pulling teeth to get her out of bed. Now Bella is up & ready to go - she just likes to follow me around. As I was brushing my teeth, I looked at Bella & said "it would be so nice if you two girls could go out & bring home the money while I stay home" - she just cocked her head at me & looked at me as if I was crazy...maybe I am a little. LOL.
Now it's time to run off to my day job & get through the day.


*Unicorns & Glitter*

Bad case of the Mun-days

Damn corporate world. Do you have days that you just want to bag your head against the wall & hit people? That's most of my work days. It's like a bad version of "Ground hog day" - although I hated that movie too.
Why is it, that people have to ask you the same damn question all the time? For instance, if 3 weeks ago, we couldn't expedite a particular part & vendor was able to find only ~150 pcs that were left over from previous job to ship to us to hold us over, why would the answer be any different today if there were more they could send to us now? It wouldn't be! So to ask me if there is a partial they could ship sooner than what I had just told you is absolutely retarded! Grrr!! Call me bitchy, but damn!
You shouldn't despise waking up in the morning & dragging your ass into work only to look forward to "baby sitting" & bull shit without at positive. Don't get me wrong, I know I have a decent job, it just doesnt make me happy or motivate me to do anything. It's like being a little kid in school & you are just staring at the clock until the bell rings...torture.

That's my daily rant

Jealous Melvin

My girls are too funny! If Bella (the smaller of the two) comes to sit by me, here comes Esme (better known as Mama) barges her big self right on top of me! Crazy girls! LOL




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Using common sense in the work place

I do not comprehend why it is so difficult for people to do their job...I swear, I babysit grown men (sometimes women) everyday of my office life. Inventory control is not exactly rocket science...and these people get paid the big bucks - WTH is that about?! This world is definitely backwards.

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Bedtime fun!

My girls typically have about 10-15 min of playtime before they pass out. This is what goes on around me!
My girls are just crazy! Lol

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Feelings...what the hell do they mean anyways?

As a little girl I always thought I would find a prince charming & live happily ever after...well, that bubble was popped when my ex-husband had a baby with another woman. I remember one of the only things he said to me was "I just don't feel the same way anymore" in response to his vow that he written himself for our wedding. I just wanted to explode - feelings CHANGE! Feelings are never the same...they're up, they're down, but if you let them control your life how the hell do you expect anyone to be able to stay in a relationship with you? Am I crazy? Love isn't just a 'feeling'...it's an action. It's work.
Reason I bring this up, the guy I had been dating for 2 years, talked about marriage (which is a pretty big deal for 2 divorcees) & babies & a family...all that other bullshit. Then one day he decides to walk away...no warning. No explanation. Hell, he didn't even have to tell me since he moved away to Oklahoma & left me in Texas.
For 2 years he filled my head with ideas that he loved me with all of his heart...blah blah blah...but then one day, you just switch it off? Is that possible? Am I missing something? Now it's like he's taking back anything he ever said to me...and that just makes me remember a very painful day during my divorce. I was emaciated, fading away, & alone sitting in my kitchen while my husband just continued on around me as if everything was normal. It was fine. He hadn't said a kind word to me since our anniversary...which he sent photos of himself to the other woman on the night of our anniversary...and I begged for him just to tell me he loved me & that he said he wanted to grow old with me at one point, just lie to me if that's what it took to choke out those words one last time...okay, yes I was delirious at the time. Anyone who has ever been through a divorce & takes the sanction of marriage to heart, you know you do crazy shit, irrational shit & flat out pathetic shit. I wish I could explain the feeling of pain that struck through the core of me when I knew that all of his words were meaningless.
How do you tell someone you love them & then pack your shit up & leave? How do you stayed married 20 years & then decide "oh hey, I'm just not happy"? Let me tell you something...that is the most selfish thing a person can do. So you're just not 'happy' at the moment? Do you think I was always 'happy'? Um no. But do I walk out of my marriage; my relationship...no. Maybe I'm just stupid & have no idea what I'm talking about. But when this guy, who had become such a huge part of my life, just decides not to tell me he loves, not to tell me how he wants a life with me, feels like a bomb just exploded in my chest. My heart hurts. My chest burns. How do you turn it off? Why is it easier for some than others?
We take so many things for granted & it's amazing how little attention we give to the words we say to others or even to ourselves. Words are powerful. You can never take back what has been said. Your words (and actions) define who you are & what you do in your life. So why do we carelessly throw one of the most potent words around like it's nothing...Love. Maybe I'm old school. Maybe I'm naive & want to believe some people are actually good for their word. Do you know what it feels like when the person who told you they loved you every day just stops? Can't give a definitive answer if they still love you? It's soul crushing & quite frankly, a shitty thing to do to someone. If you can't keep your word or don't really mean what you're saying, then DON'T SAY ANYTHING AT ALL! DON'T MAKE PROMISES THAT YOU CAN'T KEEP NOR INTEND ON KEEPING. Pretty simple. It's amazing creatures like penguins can mate for life, but we 'superior' ones are selfish, greedy, & hateful beings.
People wonder why I have a bigger heart towards animals.


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Isn't it Ironic?

I have spent my entire life trying to do whatever everyone else wanted me to do or be whoever they wanted me to be in hopes they might accept me.
Now, we all know that doesn't work out & now I'm too old to give a shit. Well, another epiphany: one of the reasons I told myself I wasn't cut out for the fashion industry was because of the catty females & the backstabbing bullshit - it just wasn't me. Hello! I deal with that shit everyday! Just in a "man's" world - I think I would rather deal with bitchy, catty women than men who haven't dropped a nut sack & act like catty, bitchy women. At least you expect it from women - at least we are being true to our nature. Men on the other hand - grow some balls & act like a man! You are 20 years older than I am & you're still "tattling" yet, I'm a female - I don't know how to do my job. Or you're just a stupid little boy who tries to act like a man, yet runs like a coward, lies & plays stupid games.

Bella's resting spot

My Bella has claimed a large stuffed giraffe named Geoffrey :) I tried to move it to a garage sale pile, but she kept going back that spot on the couch & just stared. I finally put it back in its place & she immediately snuggled right back down!

On the road again...

One of the great things about Texas is the vast amount of highway you get to drive...I absolutely hate driving long drives! I have the tendency to fall asleep at the wheel. But because I have "children" with me, I do everything I can to stay awake & alert. But this is what the girls get to do...

It's a dog's life

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Case of the Mondays...

Have you ever woken up to realize your life is like a movie? Well, I'm lucky enough to realize my day to day work life is "Office Space" everyday. Goodness! If someone has to remind me to do my damn job one more time I'm going to explode! When I have information I will give you information! Until then, asking me a million times will not make you get an answer from me any faster! Just saying....


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The great hedgehog escape!

Just a typical Thursday night with my girls - Bella has found her hedgehog - & what do we do with the hedgehog? Play tug-o-war & fetch...duh! But then Esme decides she wants into the action...there's a stare down...Bella must avenge her hedgehog! LOL

Love the snorts & grunts!

Love is never enough...

Whoever said all you need is love, was seriously disturbed. Love isn't everything you need & it's never enough. People will use you, abuse you & then spit you back out more ragged than you were before...yet I shouldn't think it was me? Of course not. I'm supposed to not be bitter & not take it out on the next relationship? Yeah, I'll get right on that, it's soo much fun giving your heart out to just anyone & have it fucking ripped a part just because it was fun for the moment. It has always been my dream to just date randomly, never settle down & just not care for a deeper connection.
DON'T FUCKING TELL SOMEONE THAT YOU WANT TO MARRY THEM, START PLANNING SHIT, GET YOUR KID INVOLVED & THEN DUMP YOU VIA TEXT MSG BECAUSE LONG DISTANCE IS HARD! Don't fucking try to tell me you do love me, because the last time I checked, I didn't do that to people I loved...just saying. But maybe I should. Seems to be the thing to do. They end up on top, so why the fuck not? I didn't care if he had money or if he were Brad Pitt...I didn't care he ate meat & loved to hunt...I didn't care if he wanted to get up & move across the world...all I cared about was him. Just him. Now I have friends telling me that we really didn't love each other...I'm so glad I get to hear that now. I do love him & it doesn't matter what the fuck I say because I'm just making him into someone he wasn't & I'm just more concerned about the relationship. How is that helping? The only things I said no too was being an alcoholic, drug addicted or strip clubs...damn I must be some fucking crazy fucking woman & that is just asking WAY too much of someone who says they love you & wants to be with you the rest of your life.
But of course, none of this matters because it was all a lie. I don't understand people. Why the fuck do I want to get involved in a relationship just to fuck someone over? Maybe I'm just weird that I actually mean I love you when I say it & really wanted to spend the rest of my life with you no matter what stupid shit you did or if I had to take care of your athlete's foot or even accept your daughter into my life because obviously she is important to you so she's important to me. That's just fucking ridiculous I know. What the fuck was I thinking? Ok I'm sorry to vent here, but when you don't have anyone to talk to that actually backs you up it doesn't leave a whole lot of options to vent.

What a way to start February...

I have always hated Valentine's Day. Not only do I think it is a Corporate conspiracy (flowers, candies, etc. at jacked up prices) but it also is a public day of "Who loves you?" Oh, that would be no one. So, I don't even know if I'm still in a relationship with the person I've been dating for 2 years now...pretty lame huh? He just quit talking to me...now keep in mind, this is after he decided to move away with his job & claimed that it was "for us & our future"....should've have smelled the bullshit there. Damn, you would think I would be smarter by now...especially after having a husband who sent a picture of his penis to his lover on your one year anniversary in your home that you share & then knock her up & serve you divorce papers over a text message. Why is it that four letter word makes you do the most ridiculous & insane things? Makes you believe any lie & leads to false hope.
So guys, grow a pair & just fucking tell your partner the truth if YOU decide YOU want to go back on YOUR word. Don't fucking tell someone you love them & want to spend the rest of your life with them when those are just empty words. There will always be some female out there that will spread her legs for you without the line of crap you feed to them. And yes, I take responsibility for being the dumb ass who gave you a second chance. And let me just say thank you for pushing your daughter on to me & allowing me to let her into my life as well, just to keep me around long enough for whatever stupid reason. Thank you for allowing me to be your secretary & help sell your home, write your contract, help you move & then clean your fucking house with your mother. Thank you for taking time out of your day to schmooze with my parents who accepted you into their home, fed you & gave you & your daughter gifts just like you were a part of the family.
Last, but not least, thank you for going about a month without seeing me, being a dick to me when you know I'm looking for some fucking reassurance & then just give the cold shoulder like a fucking 5 year old after 2 years of me standing by you & supporting anything you did & wanted to do. To guys: before you start to think that all women are just whiny & bitchy or whatever other bullshit you want to say, what does that make you when you can't even break up with someone to their face? Does that make you manly to dump someone who you supposedly wanted to have children with over the phone in a text message? Is it invigorating that you know you are taking a knife & stabbing the other person in their back while continuously twisting it deeper & deeper into their heart? Frankly, I think it makes you a coward & I have no respect for someone who does that.
Whoever said absence make the heart grow fonder was smoking something...absence make the heart grow FARTHER away. And I am the fool, yet again...seriously, what's the point of loving someone & giving them your heart? What's the point of fucking Disney movies & the naive dream that their is true love & all that other mumbo jumbo? Please enlighten me because I'm drawing a blank. Work, friends, & affairs will 9 times out of 10 win over you.
So here it is going on 2 days without a word from him. How am I not suppose to think we are even still together? It's always attractive when a man hurts a woman; who wouldn't want this?

Just saying

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Relationships, love & havok it can bring

It still baffles me to this day that I still attempt to be involved with someone. You would think I would have learned by now that people don't stick around & words are empty. I think, whoever came up with the saying "better to have loved & lost, than never loved at all" never lost anyone. It's hard not to believe that it's not your fault.
I've allowed this guy back into my life 3 times now & believing what he said to me. Why did I do that? Because I'm fucking retarded, that's why. For some reason, there is this ridiculous idea & hope that I would be able to spend the rest of my life with someone. Damn Disney movies! LOL And where does it get me? Nowhere. Does it do any good? No. Just one more piece of the heart gone.
I don't know how to not care...I mean, is he giving a damn now? Nope. I don't understand how you can hurt someone & not feel bad...I don't know how to do that. Maybe it would be easier if I would learn that tactic. He knows I'm hurting & does he offer any condolensce? No. I don' t know why I honestly believed him & trusted him...and that's a big deal. I don't trust anyone. Even after all the shit I've been drug through, I allowed the hope trickle in & let myself believe he really did want to get married & all that other bull. For 2 YEARS!
How many chances do you gives someone? Crying doesn't do anything...nothing changes. So is it worth it?


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WTF

Ok...so you set up a meeting with a vendor, then pass the shit off the day they are suppose to come in?! Why the hell do I need to take the meeting when you set it up? Great way to start a day.

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Stating the obvious

Ok peeps....when you ask me to look into an order I've placed, I don't need you to tell me when it was due...obviously that doesn't matter considering it's not here & no one is held accountable for being on time. I have access to the original order, so I can see when it was actually placed, any notes, revisions, etc.

I'm just saying.

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3rd YouTube video: Bringing in a little of the 50's Glam

I have my lighting. I've somewhat got the video recorder & tripod thing down. I'm getting better with Windows movie maker & the whole editing thing (I even figured out how to do the whole voice over thing! Lol) And I think I'm getting better - well being my 3rd video I think I have been progressing.
It's actually kind of fun! Very time consuming - but what the hell else do I have to do...not a whole lot :)
I'm constantly learning new things, researching & all that fun stuff!
Now I just need subscribers!

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My Little Ducklings

Oh my pugs - they are my ducklings! LOL Everywhere I go, they are right behind me & heaven forbid I close the bathroom door & they can't get in! (my cat whines too hahaha). We are off to bed after playing with makeup & chasing the cat :)

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App Ads & quick fingers

I completely understand apps that are free will have advertisement throughout them, which is what keeps them free - but WHY does the advertisement have to pop up & take over the ENTIRE screen when you are right in the middle of playing the app. Not only that, they place the "install" button in an area that you are bound to hit if you're in the middle of playing the game! Grrr then I have to close out & start it over again & it's aggravating! I saw it the 1st time & I didn't want to install it then, why would I want to install it now? Am I the only one this irritates?

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Spit it out!

Seriously...when it comes to business, when 3 words will suffice for the 20 you just used, I want to slap you across the head. SPIT IT OUT! I don't care who else you talked to, what it is for or used in, just tell me what you want purchased, the qty & when you need it. Very simple. And after working with me for over a year, you would think people would have it down that I prefer email, especially when you are requesting something to be ordered.- and I don't need you to call me prior to & tell me your going to send one.
Please refrain from asking stupid questions...think before you open your mouth - its "office space" everyday.


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My 1st YouTube video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3kbE8Q7JBmA&feature=youtube_gdata_player

Can't believe it! I must be insane - but here goes nothing!

Product Review

I've been using the Origins Brush cleaner for the past couple of weeks & I have to say I'm not really impressed. While I like the idea of the spray bottle & the liquid is very light, it doesn't seem to be doing much for cleaning my brushes.
It makes me want to just scrub the crap out of my brushes but of course that wouldn't be a good idea! I think I'm going to have to go back to my trusty MAC brush cleaner soon!

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Day 1 of filming: WTH am I doing?

Kudos to all the gurus & other people who consistently upload videos to YouTube!
My first day was not a complete epic fail, but I hope I'm not the only aspiring guru who started off rough & had no idea what they were doing! LOL
I'm halfway done editing, & I'll need to re-do a section of it in the morning, then hopefully at least upload my 1st video...only to start another. Trial & error; practice makes perfect - these sayings keep going through my head.
I am sure there will be a TON of negative comments because that's what arrogant, miserable people across the Internet do to each other & I don't see the point or what kind of satisfaction they would get out of it. But at least I'm trying - this is a HUGE step for me! Yes I'm nervous & scared out of my mind, but I just hope God has put these interests in my head for me to pursue with His help. I don't know if it will just be a life lesson He is trying to get through to me, or if this will turn into more - but I'm hoping for the good!

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